The connection you create with your body soaks into all areas of your life.

For a long time, I lived so much outside of myself that I didn't have an h"om"e to feel safe, secure, & at peace.
Anxiety, depression, negative thoughts, addictive sexual thinking, were what I considered home.

I taught my first group fitness class when I was 18.

Eleven years later, not much has changed. I still get butterflies before I teach & the music is what get's my creativity flowing.

Getting out of the head & back into the body.

Alcohol, promiscuous sexual endeavors & over-exercising fed this toxic cycle for my self-confidence, yet it was the only way I felt I could get out of my head & into my body.

What is Cannabis Fitness Training?

From bongs & spinning to becoming a movement scientist, this video runs deep into ma 11 years as a personal trainer & how MBP grew into Cannabis Fitness.

Over 10 years ago I wrote this lil piece & today it feels HUGE!

To be bulimic free, a great personal trainer & to be happy is literally a dream come true.

Freedom is in our bones.

Actually, in our muscles, tendons & ligaments too, when we honor it.
I woke up super stoked today—all giddy about the 4th of July.
It wasn't the fireworks, guns, or food that got me feeling hype...well, maybe

Claiming your energetic space isn't selfish; it's really healthy.

For a long time and even moments like today, I find myself feeling Closter phobic from family, friends, clients.

As if I can't breathe.

Back in skool :) Taking three classes dis summer!

Over a month ago, I dove into @sisters.of.the.mermaid.moon The Crystal Priestess Entrepreneur, which got me upgradin' myself & MBP.

A lot of my days have felt like this recently.

&& literally, look like this lol

Chilling on da beach in the sun one moment & the next a thunderstorm!

Feeling it ALL and yet still choosing if I wanna soak in the storm or dance in it.

What I'd tell myself 10 years ago

♡ being attached to fear is much harder than living in joy

♡ you are completely perfect. Enjoy growing into you!

♡ life is Too $hort to be sad. -my mom (& my love for @tooshort lol)

P.S: I'm trailblazing on the path to good ol' clean energy even If it looks like this somedays LMAO

On Tuesday I wrote a post about trusting yourself even when you don't know what that looks likes.

& after this morning, I'm pretty sure it looks a lot like this meme...LMAO

Anxiety is a precious gift of love to yourself.

What I mean is I used to be afraid to drive on the highway.

Everytime I got in the car and knew I had to be on the highway, I'd start panicking.

All the "what if's" would overwhelm me & I'd be in a state of flight or fight in no time.

Sweating.
Paranoid.
Neurotic & on-edge.

Be, do, have.

I was stuck in the "do" phase for years and wondered why the f*ck things were never working out for me.

Confused, depressed, anxious, and so upset with the world for not reciprocating my needs, I felt abandoned.

Identifying and taking action on healthy commitments.

Identifying and taking action on healthy commitments is something super real for me right now.

I'm finally in a space where I'm genuinely proud of myself, my work, relationships, etc.

Gentle guidance from a good friend up above. Rest easy, Vince.

A dear friend of mine that was a massage therapist & personal trainer passed away last year.

We worked together on and off for years at the same gym, traveled to Michigan for functional movement school

It's okay to put your life first before your family, friends, or lovers.

Establishing your mental, physical, emotional, spiritual & financial needs on your own is SO healthy.

Nature, exercise, and cannabis became my coach.

It felt like I was re-wiring my brain back to homeostasis after being stuck in flight-or-flight for so long.

No Relationship, Person, Or Thing, Is More Important Than What's Best For You.

Today I found old videos of someone I loved very deeply.

moments captured when we thought we had it all figured out.

It's day 14 of my RSO experience, and I'm lovin' the results so far.

Here are a few pros ➕

▪︎ Modest appetite during my pre-menstrual week; usually imma a food feen.
▪︎ Mental chatter is at peace- clear thinking.
▪︎ SUPER aware of any anxiousness that starts to build. Usually, I don't notice the anxiety until I'm about to burn out or crave coffee.

Being healthy was my home & it was time to be it, unconditionally.

For a long time, I felt disconnected from people and the world, so I ran off into the wilderness to pursue a self-sustainable lifestyle. From the east coast to the west coast, I searched