P.S: I'm trailblazing on the path to good ol' clean energy even If it looks like this somedays LMAO
On Tuesday I wrote a post about trusting yourself even when you don't know what that looks likes.
& after this morning, I'm pretty sure it looks a lot like this meme...LMAO
Last night I was blessed wit a scenario to put my self-trust to the test. I did my best during the situation and yet, I still fucked up big time.
During my workout today I had a blunt hit of reality... no pun intended lol
Smoking on some CBD flower & getting my warm-up going, I began to feel vulnerable while thinking about what happened the night before.
The thought, "Was it healthy for both of us, the way I responded to how he was feeling?", popped into my head as moved through my first round of exercises.
"No"
I had failed, even though at the moment, I felt like I was on point.
It's so funny how life challenges you to better yourself...ugh lol
I wouldn't know what I know now if it wasn't for having the perfect situation to completely bomb it.
AND the self-confidence to say, "Hey, IT'S OKAY, I still love you Kendra"
Even though you did a dumb thing, it doesn't mean you are dumb (a BIG thanks to my last therapist, Ina for making those words so clear!)
So now I know what I didn't know about myself and I'm on the path to work with it.
P.S: I'm trailblazing on the path to good ol' clean energy even If it looks like this somedays LMAO