Ten Years Later My Bulimia Showed Up In My Mental Health.

Binging and purging were what I built my intimate relationships around.

Binge on the pleasure of someone and then experience the pain of not having them around.

& repeat.

I let others binge and purge me emotionally because I treated myself the same way.

We don't get what we want in life, we get what we are.

Perfection plagued me for so many years expressing its self through bulimia, depression, anxiety & OCD.

The wake-up call.

The morning of filming this workout, I almost didn't go.

After staying three nights in a motel and zero luck in finding a place to rent in San Diego, I was so scattered.

A year ago today, I was days away from hitting rock bottom.

Thanksgiving was a day filled with tears and uncertainty rather than a holiday of happiness and connection.

How do you win the battle of your inner self-talk?

Don't lose energy.

Learning to trust yourself

Just like a house that needs a steady and firm foundation to keep you safe, your energy requires the same.

Be brave enough to be as strong as you are.

Your strength is undeniable, unshakeable, and so damn loving.

empowerment, life, self-growth, travelKendra SolowOctober 29, 2020life, strength, stability, balance, no fear, self help, self understanding, confidenceComment

Trust Yo-Self.

Facedown in an upward facing dog this morning, I found myself contemplating trust & where I felt a lack of it.

There is you & then there is everyone else.

This solo dolo adventure this past month has brought so much of my old beliefs to the surface. Today especially, heightening a pondering thought.

Where is the line between putting myself first and also honoring others?

High From Phoenix, AZ!

I've been on the road for 23 days & counting!

Roaming free and doing as I please. These past few weeks have been the best summer yet.

Traveling during a pandemic doesn't sound like it would be a good idea but I'm soaking up space and sharing it in some really beneficial ways.

How Fitness, Cannabis, and Nature Healed My Eating Disorder

The first time I used cannabis was the same day I came out about my bulimia. On my way to Dunkin’ Donuts after smoking with friends, I found myself passed out behind the wheel from a panic attack.