Ten Years Later My Bulimia Showed Up In My Mental Health.

Ten years later and my bulimia showed up in other ways that I didn't expect.

Binging and purging were what I built my intimate relationships around.

Binge on the pleasure of someone and then experience the pain of not having them around.

& repeat.

I let others binge and purge me emotionally because I treated myself the same way.

I was rejecting myself and afraid to be left at the same time.

Putting myself through unhealthy cycles of pain and pleasure was all I knew. To feel good and then criticize my actions because I knew better.

How to overcome it?

1. Become aware of the problem.
2. Notice the triggers/ don't let it escalade
3. Accept yourself.

(I wrote this a year ago Monday, after one of my first sessions with my therapist. I finally started to see where I was giving my power away.)

A year later, it's a lil tough to read and share it with ya'll because I'm still working on it.

But DAYMNNN it feels SO good to know I have a year under my belt of work and progress!

Now I know I deserve all the pleasure in da world and none of the pain.

There's enough pain we all endure from being human there's no need to create more for ourselves.

So one year down of healthy cycles and many more to come!

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