Alcohol, promiscuous sexual endeavors & over-exercising fed this toxic cycle for my self-confidence, yet it was the only way I felt I could get out of my head & into my body.
From bongs & spinning to becoming a movement scientist, this video runs deep into ma 11 years as a personal trainer & how MBP grew into Cannabis Fitness.
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Chilling on da beach in the sun one moment & the next a thunderstorm!
Feeling it ALL and yet still choosing if I wanna soak in the storm or dance in it.
On Tuesday I wrote a post about trusting yourself even when you don't know what that looks likes.
& after this morning, I'm pretty sure it looks a lot like this meme...LMAO
What I mean is I used to be afraid to drive on the highway.
Everytime I got in the car and knew I had to be on the highway, I'd start panicking.
All the "what if's" would overwhelm me & I'd be in a state of flight or fight in no time.
Sweating.
Paranoid.
Neurotic & on-edge.
I was stuck in the "do" phase for years and wondered why the f*ck things were never working out for me.
Confused, depressed, anxious, and so upset with the world for not reciprocating my needs, I felt abandoned.
Establishing your mental, physical, emotional, spiritual & financial needs on your own is SO healthy.
Read MoreIt can catch you feeling like you just launched into outer space and you're on a journey back to earth. 🛸
Read MoreBinging and purging were what I built my intimate relationships around.
Binge on the pleasure of someone and then experience the pain of not having them around.
& repeat.
I let others binge and purge me emotionally because I treated myself the same way.
Facedown in an upward facing dog this morning, I found myself contemplating trust & where I felt a lack of it.
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