Recently I've been meeting people who flair up my anxiety.
Recently I've been meeting people who flair up my anxiety.
On the beach while offering bodywork, social media, driving in the car. It's kind of like this feeling of walking barefoot during sand spur season in Florida.
At any moment, their little thorns can pierce through your heel.
Ouch!
These people carry a falsetto in their energy. They tend to have an unusually or unnaturally high need for power or dominance, and not in a good way like setting healthy boundaries.
Like yesterday evening, while on the beach setting up my table for Bodywork, a woman came up to me in relief that there was a massage table on the beach.
She looked drained, almost strung out on something and the anxiety she carried was overbearing.
She was so relieved to see there was a massage table on the beach, and I thought, "okay, she's excited to get bodywork, also a little nervous, but that's alright."
So as I continued to set up my space and wipe down the table, her first question was about being vaccinated and if I was.
I said no, confidently and continued to do my thing, thinking she was probably vaccinated, and if it bothered her I wasn't, she would just move along.
My anxiety came to a simmer; I took a deep breath and listened to the words she next said.
"I stopped seeing my chiropractor because he is vaccinated, and every time he touches me, I'm getting warts and breakouts on my face."
I replied, "I don't think it works like that."
Hoping she would come back with a response that would credit her observation, but she didn't say much. Instead, she asked why I didn't get the shot, and I explained I already had Covid, so I feel my immunity is strong.
She said nothing, and by then, it was easy to recognize she didn't want to receive help for her body, but she had other motives.
This woman didn't want relief from my services but was feeding off my energy whether she knew it or not.
She then asked about my zodiac sign, my rising, etc.; I felt her anxious & unstable energy trying to keep tabs on me, holding me hostage in her world of doubt, blame, and insecurity.
I took another deep breath, and she got the hint. "You're turning me down before I even said yes or no?
I replied, "Yes." and then proceeded with the final touches on my table.
She walked away without a word and instantly, my anxiety perished.
I laughed out of relief because no amount of money or duty to serve people is worth feeling that way while helping someone that doesn't want it.
You can be a friendly driver on the road and still get pushed around.
You can comment on everyone's photos but still get no real support.
You can be an incredible coach but waste your time coaching people who don't want to be coached!
Your energy is your energy. Get to know it, learn how to nurture and protect it.
Build your fitness to secure and strengthen your physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual health.
Stay safe and stay real out there this week, ya'll
Kendra Vogue Solow
